Yesterday I wanted to talk to my mom. I wanted to hear her say my name. I don’t know why I was feeling like this. I wasn’t having a hard day at work. I just wanted to pick up the phone and call her, like I use to.
I haven’t had one of those days in a long time, before I knew it the tears were flowing. I was thankful I was alone at work and was able to just sit and wait for the tears to stop. I didn’t have to worry about someone asking me what was wrong and completely losing it.
I knew what was wrong. I was missing my mama and I wanted to have a long conversation with her. I wanted to laugh on the phone. I just wanted to say hey mama what’s going on.
I think that’s the hardest part of missing someone is not being able to talk to them or being able to hear their voice.
I wanted to offer a tip to you that helped me yesterday.
Share how you are feeling when you are having a I miss you day.
It helped to get those emotions out yesterday. Since I was alone at work I posted on Facebook how I was feeling. I posted on Facebook because I have a few friends who have lossed their mother too so they get how I was feeling.
Sure enough they showed up and talk to me and help sooth my soul. It’s nice to know someone gets how you are feeling, and understand the pain going through your heart.
I know this will not be my last I miss you day. I will continue to have them every now and then. In the beginning I thought something was wrong with me when it would hit me out of nowhere and the tears would flow. Now I know this is a normal part of grief. You are supposed to miss your love ones and it’s okay to cry. It’s okay to talk about them. Talking about them helps keep them alive in your heart.